I was on my way to church this afternoon when I heard a song that took me back to my mission. And as I get ready to be on the road for the next six weeks, I thought about how much I miss my mission.
I loved my mission. And I have to say that up to this point it was probably the best year and a half of my life.
Today there are 2 main reasons why I miss my mission.
First, I loved having a companion. I know not everyone, ok a lot of people, really struggled with their companions, but I loved having somebody to be with all the time, even if they drove me crazy sometimes. It's been 11.5 years since I have been home. I can't even believe it has been that long. I ran into some girlfriends of mine when I got home who had also served and it had been 3 or 4 years since they had been home. I remember thinking there is no way that I can make it that long without getting married, just for that companionship. Now I wonder what choices I made that have brought me down this path and if I could have made some different choices that would have taken me down a different path. I also wonder if maybe those blessings that were given me in my patriarchal blessing were meant for another time. Anyway, I miss my mission because I miss having a companion.
The second reason why I miss my mission is because all I needed to worry about was the things 'that mattered most'. I miss that constant feeling of the spirit. Yes, things were challenging and difficult and I struggled. But I knew what I was working on had eternal significance. And no you cannot tell me that what I am doing for my career has eternal significance. In a way, I am envious of you stay at home moms. I know that things are challenging and tough and that a lot of the time you want to pull your hair out. I have no illusions of the difficulty of being a stay at home mom. But think about it, what you are working on is what matters most. And trust me sometimes it is no fun being out in the world.
So.... kind of a bummer of a post but those are my thoughts tonight as I spent most of my Sabbath working and getting ready for my travel. I hope you all had a great Sunday!
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