Monday, August 31, 2009

Anxiety and Drama

Today was a day. The intensity level today was running at a constant 9 out of 10. As things kept getting thrown at me, I was surprised at how well I seemed to be taking them. I thought that had I had a day like this not even 6 months ago - I would have been super grouchy and would not have handled the stress well.

It just seems that I have been able to handle a lot of the stress I have been dealing with much better over the past few months. I keep trying to think what the change in my life has been and I don't think I can attribute it to just one thing. Over the past six months or so I have really been trying to simplify my life. And as I have managed to eliminate a lot of things that were causing unnecessary stress or drama (roommates & taking care of a house on my own) in my life, it seems that I can handle the necessary stress (work and school) much better.

People always comment on how strong or independent I am. But I have to say there is such a thing as taking on too much and I have a nasty habit of not being able to say no. I want to be able to help people and sometimes that gets me into trouble. Sometimes it is nice not to be the one in charge and let someone else take care of it. But I guess that is one of the things that I get to work on overcoming in this life.

Now if I could just find the right man.... :)